Tuesday, May 02, 2006

those lost senses

my eyes are tired and my mind is somewhere between all this push and shove. I hear songs that are like this kind of living, cold and separated... Is this the life we all lead, a severed existence? One is taught to feed on those impressions, to please the crowd without giving signs of conformity. but they're all scared to actually connect. We all appear to attach to each other, but we're all losing a sense of touch, a sense of communication.

Monday, May 01, 2006

not a pretty girl

I am not a pretty girl
That is not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distress
And I don't need to be rescued
So put me down punk
Wouldn't you prefer a maiden fair
Isn't there a kitten
Stuck up a tree somewhere

I am not an angry girl
But it seems like
I've got everyone fooled
Every time I say something
They find hard to hear
They chalk it up to my anger
And never to their own fear
And imagine you're a girl
Just trying to finally come clean
Knowing full well they'd prefer
You were dirty
And smiling

And I am sorry
I am not a maiden fair
And I am not a kitten
Stuck up a tree somewhere

And generally my generation
Wouldn't be caught dead
Working for the man
And generally I agree with them
Trouble is you gotta have yourself
An alternate plan
I have earned my disillusionment
I have been working all of my life
And I am a patriot
I have been fighting the good fight
And what if there are
No damsels in distress
What if I knew that
And I called your bluff
Don't you think every kitten
Figures out how to get down
Whether or not you ever show up

I am not a pretty girl
I don't really want to be a pretty girl
I want to be more than a pretty girl

-ani difranco

The River

by Nguyen Quang Thieu

We wake from our dream with no time to button our shirts,
To tie back our hair, to leave word with our families.
We run together from two distant places
Through fields of trembling grass.

Dewdrops are thrown in the air like stars;
The grass-spider, startled, runs to the end of its line.
Grasshoppers, toads are thrown in the air,
Seeds of yellow grass are thrown in the air and ring like bells.

We run from two directions and kneel on two banks;
The river’s a moving horizon between us.
The clouds are sails discolored by wind,
Unhappy sails that tear and mend themselves.

The gobies are golden keys to the door
Of the water world where our house is waiting.
No time to button our shirts, to tie back our hair—
The rattle of keys echoes, rushing along the banks.

Why don’t we keep running? Why have we stopped?
Why don’t we crawl in the river like brown turtles?
We’re perch that climbed the falls, deceived by tiny inlets;
We’re two cornflowers thrown on the floor of dusk.

We run through many fields, we run and look back.
Why not run into the river? Why do we kneel on the banks?
We turn our faces up to the sky like frogs,
Summoning not the rain, but each other’s hair.

We run through many fields, through seasons of plowing and

sowing

We run, dreaming we’re running from sky rebels.
Why do we come back to the banks of the river and cry?
And why do the ferryboats sink themselves before dawn?

We run through many fields, through seasons of wild grass;
Fresh grass-seeds roll in a pocket of your shirt.
Why don’t you pick a stem of grass to tie back your hair,
Your hair that is streaming wildly across the fields?

Oh the river gobies are skipping wildly
The turning keys are rushing, rattling, echoing,
The water world is opening its soft doors.
Why do we kneel on the banks, and apologize to the clouds?

We run through rainy seasons, through dry seasons,
Through seasons of sweet grass, and bitter grain.
No time to button our shirts, to tie back our hair—
The river is waiting for us, changing its song.

—Translated from the Vietnamese by Martha Collins and the author